My catholic teaching told me that once we commit a mortal sin, we lose all the grace of God and we are not in communion with the Church or God. I fervently believe so. However, for a sinner to repent, despite the need of our free will to repent, we still need the grace of God in order to be aware of our darkness and evil and thus to seek the forgiveness of God. In a nutshell, a mortal sinner cannot repent without the grace of God while a mortal sinner is not in a state of Grace. Kind of a paradox?
I committed a grave sin and I believe it was God who sent a message that his doors are locked to me. The message was given through an acquaintance who out of the blue told me about his ‘‘brother’’s sin which not only was identical to mine but included details about me that no one knows. Finished by telling me that I should be ‘proud’ of all the good things I had done for they could not be covered with one hand (obviously all the sins) Is there any hope I can still be saved?